Missing that Weight Watchers meeting on my birthday couldn’t be avoided. I wanted to enjoy that special day to the fullest and the weekend leading up to it was a feast.
And I’ll be the first to admit that missing a meeting put me a bit off the wagon for the remaining plus week. I got a bit lazy in the tracking department and took more advantage of the “free” in the WW Freestyle program than the “style” part.
What I’ve learned–Raw Cookie Dough is NOT a Zero Point Food. Zero Point Foods are not to be consumed in mass quantities!
It could have been the sampling—a rather large sampling of the cookie dough that I prepared.
I take full responsibility. These nuggets of epic delightfullness did NOT cause my weight gain. I caused my weight gain by eating this to fullness!
It could have been the many tastes of the Cognac, cream and Cranberry sauce that I made for Bonaparte while the Cornish Hens were roasting.
Did I mention that there was about two sticks of butter in the sauce. Here the shallots are sweating in butter and broth. THIS was before the cognac and cream were added!
It could have been the two Philadelphia Soft Pretzels that I chowed down on for Pretzel Day at work—after all, I want to be a stellar employee!
Let it be known. The Philly Soft Pretzel IS a trigger food for me. Slathered with “Zero Point” mustard does NOT make this a zero point food. But I really didn’t want to pass them up because I want to be a star employee!!!
I’m a good girl I am. So please keep those pretzels away from me!
There are a great many “it-could-have’s”. And the thing is, I wasn’t responsible for my actions.
But—I’m not going to be so hard on myself and I’m not gonna beat myself over it. What’s done is done.
Deep down I knew there was no way I lost weight during the week that I missed. But I didn’t exactly expect to gain 1.2 pounds.
Numbers don’t lie. I need to be accountable for my actions!
I literally picked myself up, dusted myself off (actually I dusted the flour off my pixie pants) and started all over again last night.
But I did and that’s it. Time to move forward. And I did. Today I wore a fitted tee shirt, and pants that I forgot I had along with a linen blend blazer and pointy-toed, toe clevage baring shoes. I made myself look like a lost rather than gained!
Gray fitted tee–I think a fitted look is more flattering than an overly loose one..
Spring vibe pants (they were less than $20 from J. Crew last year–end of season)….
Toe cleavage ( the fake tan is spotty–it’s my crossed-eyes!)
….and my favorite spring scent made me feel great today!
And I think that’s some of the wisdom that comes with pro-aging. Twenty or thirty years ago, I would have overreacted to that weight gain as though it was the worst thing that could happen while on a weight-loss journey.
I’ll be honest. I would have taken out the Correctol or Colace. And I did that when I was in my early thirties. It went on for a few years. Binge and purge. And it kept the weight down. But it is extreme and it isn’t healthy and it isn’t conducive for healthier way to look at food.
During those disorderly days you know were you could find me!!!!
I overcame that disorder.
I’m still rather disorderly with my closets and drawers but no longer with my body.
At the age I am now, I’m ok with a weight gain for a week. I’m ok with it because I’ll be slowly losing the 10 pounds I need to lose. And there will be “good” weeks and “bad” weeks.
And on the positive side, I won’t give up. I’ll keep pushing and trying because trying is the best I can do. I’m back to tracking..
My journal/tracker. I bring it to work and it was ignored last week. I will say, that luckily for me, I am so busy at work that I don’t even have time for a lunch break. My day flies–and I love it like that!
Dinner was planned to be quick and healthier this evening.
1/2 Avacado mashed atop one slice of rye bread, topped with shrimp, a hard-boiled egg, and two baby artichokes filled me up this evening!
Hey. Changing the subject here. You know what happened at work today? Well, I’ll tell you.
One of my co-workers had been cutting paper with a scissor. I could hear the sound of the scissor very carefully cutting through the paper. It was a very even sound and it just made me feel so calm. That sound was very mesmerizing.
I kid you not, the sound of the scissors cutting the paper had such an even and gentle cadence that I felt like I was on a fluffy pillow ready to fall asleep!
And when I told her how the sound of the scissor cutting paper made me feel, she “got” it. She said that every so often when she’s speaking to a claimant on the phone, there voice will be so smooth and soothing that it puts her in a state of total calmness.
Do you know that feeling? It’s like when you were a child and someone played with your hair.
Oh yes..it’s THAT feeling!
What makes you feel like that? Do you get very relaxed by certain sounds that you find utterly soothing? Share please!
Anyway, I’m back on track. Hopefully I won’t have any large gains except financially!!!
And this song–it’s inspirational to dust yourself off… Ms. Diana Krall…
